A family member posted this article on Facebook yesterday. 

13 Mom truths 

Great thoughts, one I took away is,’Fewer things equal less stress. The more you have, the more you have to manage. The busier you are, the more you will feel like you are racing around running on empty. Clearing out the clutter is one of the best things to do — constantly get rid of stuff. And it teaches our kids to not get sucked into the “more is better” conundrum of life.’

I get so overwhelmed with all the toys, all the clothes, the clutter, and constant “mess”. I’ve been choosing to ‘de-clutter’ one area of my home at a time. The other day I took 5! bags of clothes from our closets to the thrift store. Sometimes it takes me a day, sometimes it takes me three weeks, depending on appointments and other life events. 

I’ve been getting some great ideas from Pinterest on how to organize my spaces because honestly I AM NOT naturally organized. I started by searching ‘organize’ and got all kinds of feeds. Here are a couple. 

Organization Board Tutorial
Magnetic Board
Organize Your Home
I’m determined to discipline myself to put things away after I use it, BEFORE I move on to the next things. This is a huge challenge especially when I’m constantly being needed, but I’m seeing my patterns/habits in my minions. They watch me, mimic me. Plus I’m learning that by teaching them to be organized and put things away when finished with it, it makes less work for us in the long run. Less crying. Less whining. Less resistance. More peace! Yes please!!!

Rest

So I’ve been on this journey, fighting, repenting, asking God to take it, help me overcome it and this morning I read this….
“Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭12:8-10‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Break down for me:

What does boasting really mean? Boast: a reason to be proud: something impressive that someone or something has or has done 

I hide my weaknesses for fear of people seeing me as a failure or fake which is silly. Why? Because it’s actually the opposite. When I hide my weaknesses I’m being deceived and deceiving other by putting on a front or ‘face’ that isn’t actually true. 

Ok what does “Christ’s power may rest on me” 2 cor 12:9 mean?

Christ’s power?

Power means the ability to act or produce an effect

Rest means a freedom from activity or labor 

Ok….I’m laboring I AM. I’m not allowing Christ to produce an effect from my weaknesses nor am I allowing His rest into that laboring. 

“Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses,…” 2 cor 12:9

And be GLAD in my weakness WHAT!!? Talk about it!? So that He’s glorified. Hmmmm

Glad means very willing to do something; causing happiness and joy 

So I’m suppose to be joyful in my weakness and not condemning myself, not bad mouthing myself or saying/thinking why can’t you ever get this right!? We’ve been down this road already, why are you choosing to go here AGAIN!?

I think I go there because I know how to navigate it. Same ol song and dance. What if, what if I allow God to create a new song and dance, one that flows and has grace involved. 

Then what?

Foundation 

More than I bargained for today! 

As I began to prepare the bathroom for a deep clean and new paint, I pulled up the horrid excuse for flooring. Big mistake!!! Or was it?

 

As I pulled up the flooring I discovered layer, upon layer, upon layer, years of covering up the one before it. As I pulled up each piece, some matted together, others in individual pieces I discovered the foundation. Rotted, moldy, and the culprit of “it smells in here” whenever I walked through the door. 

 

As my frustration and anger grew, I was met with a teaching moment. 

The foundation being my heart; moldy, rotted, stinky. I’ve spent years and years covering up the pain, patching the whole with______ fill in the blank. 

And today, as I peeled up each layer, I was reminded of what God has been asking of me: to give Him my layers, the pain, the hurt, the life events that I had no control over. Peel them away to expose the rot, the mold, the stinch. So my foundation could be healed. 

I’ve been SOOOOO resistant because those layers in my mind were for protection. I had NO idea what it was doing to the foundation of my heart however. But now I see.  

 

I see the condition of my heart; no more patching, no more fraud. Just real. I give it to you, because YOU created my inner most being in the depths of my mothers womb, YOU know the number of hairs on my head, and where I have been isn’t hidden from YOU. HEAL THE FOUNDATION OF MY HEART! 

 

Me

Lets start by introducing myself, HI! I’m Shellie

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A glimpse into me:

I was born and raised in a small town in Northern Nevada, with the exception of a three year move to Idaho/Utah between the ages of 7-10. My family lived and worked on a ranch in Idaho but my sisters and I went to school in Utah, kinda fun to say when you’re a child.

wilson canyon

I grew up with 2 younger sisters, childhood best friends, and LOTS of cousins who are all like brothers and sisters to me. We went to school together, we were in 4-H and sporting activities together, every holiday and birthday was spent together. Life appeared good, but we all have a past, events in our lives we wished weren’t true, things we block out of our minds because we don’t want to believe they happened.

The name Becoming Strong N Beautiful came to me in 2007 while myself and two other teachers were asked to teach a class during the Women’s Symposium on campus. Our desire was to show our female students there’s more to beauty than meets the eye, and how important our health is.  Little did I know at the time that Becoming Strong N Beautiful would mean so much more to me as time went on.  As I taught these freshmen oral English, I saw stories on their faces. They began to trust me and let me into their lives, they shared their secrets and dreams with me. My time in China had a huge lesson, lessons in who God designed me to be and not who I pretended to be. I hid behind the shame and guilt of my past, behind my insecurities, and my heart wounds. I long to understand His perfect plan and Why He choose me as His Daughter.

In 2008 I came back to the states. I attended massage school and began my own business under an amazing friend and mentor.  For my business name I choose…..

Becoming Strong N Beautiful “bring love and healing to the nations”

A LOT has happened since 2008: opening and closing of my massage business, 4 pregnancies, marriage, new friends, losing touch with old friends, several moves, including a HUGE one a ‘bazillion’ miles away from family, friends, and our church family and community, to follow a dream.

Me at the end of 2015, living on a ranch in a ‘foreign land’ called Oklahoma. please no offense, i grew up in the Desert!!! things in Oklahoma are WAY different than what I’m use to.  I’m a wife, a mom of 4 BEAUTIFUL minions under the age of 4, no there are no duplicates, no this was NOT my plan. I’m finding wanting a healthier me, wanting more for my husband and children, wanting to encourage, wanting to inspire, wanting MORE for myself and those around me.

My heart is to encourage those around me through stories and life as I see it and have experienced it.

So here’s to new adventures! blogging world here i come.